A Busy Ant doesn't have Time to be Sad

I say I'm okay with it because I have to. If I had it my way, I'd say no every time, but as we all know, life doesn't work that way. I want to crawl in a hole and just stay there till everything is done. I just can't tell you all this bc you don't understand. I tried and I got discouraged, so now I'm making myself vulnerable to a blog. 

I was supposed to get myself involved in something else, "a busy ant doesn't have time to be sad."  

I'm Lucky I'm in Love with my Best Friend, too bad THAT isn't reciprocated. I guess I have to say my heart got chipped last week and I'm still recovering? But it's just been so hard. Oh god, I have such highs and lows lately. More lows than usual. When will I get that high back?