A Poll

lol Linh and I are taking a poll on which do people prefer: hair or bare? I rather a little hair, trimmed and short. The whole bare thing reminds me of 10 year olds and that's just... not right. Speaking of 10 year olds, Vu and I were looking at Meganslaw to see the registered sex offenders and Vu found a sex offender with 7 offenses! We have a winner! (Amy found one with 4 offenses). Okay, going back to hair or bare, this little poll reminds me of  how much people are sexually active. It's just interesting to know bc I was a prude in high school, so all that sexual activity was really eye-opening. Anyways, in the Daily Cal, there's a column called "Sex on Tuesday" and it's pretty funny and insightful. I want to meet that writer. haha

Today was cold. I was waiting for Vu, under a bunch of trees and I smelled and felt christmas coming. It was just this sudden nostalgic feeling, it makes me smile a little, but at the same time I don't want it to come... 

GAH study for chemistry. 

GOO Camp Kesem!! 

Color

Haha I knew I liked black, but I really don't like wearing color. I usually wear black, white, gray, and occasionally red. 

A Busy Ant doesn't have Time to be Sad

I say I'm okay with it because I have to. If I had it my way, I'd say no every time, but as we all know, life doesn't work that way. I want to crawl in a hole and just stay there till everything is done. I just can't tell you all this bc you don't understand. I tried and I got discouraged, so now I'm making myself vulnerable to a blog. 

I was supposed to get myself involved in something else, "a busy ant doesn't have time to be sad."  

I'm Lucky I'm in Love with my Best Friend, too bad THAT isn't reciprocated. I guess I have to say my heart got chipped last week and I'm still recovering? But it's just been so hard. Oh god, I have such highs and lows lately. More lows than usual. When will I get that high back?  

I'm Ugly

Jealous looks ugly on people. 

vote no on prop 8.

Vote NO on Prop 8!! Every vote counts!!!  if you're for it, don't vote you motherfuckers. 

: )

Today is a much better day.

I realize it's not THAT hard to wake up in the morning, that dreading feeling doesn't hit me as hard anymore. Music is keeping me company. 

I feel like we're miles away. 

on a lighter note: crazy stuff i learned in bio today, there are squirrel hunters! They use a device to make a sound, so squirrels will pop up and they shoot them. Well, the sound is of a baby squirrel getting its head ripped off!! WHO hunts squirrels??? -_- 

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I was so sure everything was going to be okay.

I thought wrong.

My heart feels heavy. My world's turned upside down and I don't know when it's going to be okay.

I just want everything to return to the way it was. Is it so much to ask? 

I feel so helpless, I can't convince my own boyfriend to stay with me. God I'm so pathetic. I don't even know who I am anymore. 

Concentrate.

numb

It really hurts. It gets better though, right? 

I found my calling; LGBT and fighting for gay rights! We can do it!!

Vote NO on Prop 8!!!